joleny vi

hey, my mom told me that turning 21 means that you gotta be
responsible to yourself.. y’know legal age and all
that hoopla..

but what does it really mean?

is 21 synonymous with responsibility?
that you got you’re own life to lead..?
that you hafta to take on the responsibilty for
yourself?

im not sure that being 21 means acquiring all
those new found maturity suddenly..

right now, im in the peak of my life..
im 21…
im ready to indulge myself intro this sudden
legality…
of formality…
of the novelty..
only this age can afford..

but why the heck am i this lonely?

is this new-found confidence

this self-awareness

this exhilirating sense of freedom?
not a liberty at all?

or could it be a liberty?
a liberty that is both a drudgery?

life aint a clear piece of matter
life is a convoluted mess of confusion and
gawkiness
and i dont know whether this path im taking
is a path towards the precipice of nowhere…
or to the golden of somewhere..

haaahhh…
21..
thats a mighty scary number…
hope i can outlive the novelty..
and achieve consistency..

but the only thing I can say is…

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL
so CARPE DIEM!

seize all what life can offer to us!!!